Life can only be understood backwards

It has been awhile since I have last blogged. So today, I will be blogging about life cum adulting. So many upsetting and amazing moments had happened to me in 2018. First, I am so blessed to have known and met lots of new friends along the journey of my life. 2018 had taught me a lot about 'Friendship'. To cut it short, friends are not your carbon copy where they need to be there for you 24 hours, following you to anywhere you go n etc. Nope, they are just normal human beings who has their own life to live. Let them explore, paint and create their own journey without having to stick around with you all the time. My point is that do not ever rely too much on your friends. Do not expect them to be there for you all the time including when you are feeling down. Some of you might not agree with this sentence but I personally think that everyone has their own ways of showing their concerns, cares and loves towards you. I still remembered the time when I am feeling so down whe...

1) I get nervous easily but I'm good at hiding it but at sometimes I just couldn't control nor do I managed to hide the nervousness. It's kinda complicated (I didn't understand myself too) as at some point of time, I get way too excited and was very eager to present but there comes a time where I get so nervous till it affect my concentration and lead me to unable to explain things very well and I won't even able to make eye contact with the audiences. Besides, my heart beat real fast too while I'm asking questions in the lecturer hall as the hall will be automatically become silent and all you could hear is your own voice. The nervousness will automatically increased from 80% to 110% I swear!  2) Believe it or not I get embarrassed easily and again I'm good at hiding it though my heart feels like jumping out of my chest at anytime.  3) I'm kinda perfectionist (it's not a good thing) when it comes to doing assignments. Like small little erro...

It's been a while since I posted something here. So, bonjour peeps! Well, things have been rough and busy. It’s been a fast-paced, busy and hectic for the past few weeks, and even months for me but glad that it's all over now Alhamdulillah. Amidst the hustle and bustle of daily life and got stucked into an abyss of chores and errands, I'm proud and contented to say that I succeed in managing my time efficiently and effectively. It's considered a big achievement for me cause I'm really bad at managing my time :') As usual, my plans for every semester break is to feed my brain with good knowledge 👀 Thought of going to the library more frequent but yeah I changed my mind cause I knew that I'll be borrowing lots of library books to return them untouched. Might as well I read all those untouched books on my shelves. 

I once thought 3 months of holiday was fun. Like I can finally qodho' all my sleepless night, meet up with good old friends, HTH (Heart To Heart) talk by the beach, do all é activities that can't be done in usim and etc. But no manh I was wrong. 1 month of holiday is already enough for me. I had enough of rest. Zzz. But, I have 2 more months here. So, I told myself, let's embrace this Fiah! Let's feed the brain with good knowledge, make more visits to the library, do more jogging, eat healthy and the list goes on. Well, what I thought was bloody wrong.  That being said, I really thought the 2 months would do me good. I mean, more time at home and more time with family and friends. Sounds good right? Nope. I  just got stucked into an abyss of chores, errands and binge watching movies. In conclusion, too much 'me' time till I don't even know what to watch on Youtube anymore. I have reached the peak of 'no life' y'all.  Have I read more...

" People change, love hurts, friends leave, things go wrong but just remember that life goes on " Been seeing lots of negative post on my whatsapp status lately. Thus, here is a post specially dedicated to those who are feeling down or sad at the moment // It's just my 2 cents advice // First and foremost it is none other but is about the result. Alright. Take a deep breathe. Inhale and slowly exhale it through your mouth.  Ever heard of this beautiful ayah? وإذ تأذن ربكم لئن شكرتم لأزيدنكم And remember when your Lord proclaimed, "If you are grateful, I will surely increase you in favor". I know that some of you were so sad of your result. In fact, were downhearted about it. It's ok to dwell on if for quite some time but don't ever ever dwell it for such a long period of time as it could make you feel more unmotivated and unprovoked. Honestly, me too. I was extremely so sad with my own result. I even refresh the istudent portal f...

Salam. Waaah dah lama gila namatey tk blog hahaha. Yelah sibuk dgn uni kn. So currently skrg ni I kt SG. Bru hbes exam sem 1. So now tgh cuti lah. Cuti dari 13 Jan to 12 Feb. Cuti mmg lah best tpi .... agak boring sbb tkde kwn nk klua dgn. Yelah Syah S kt Tareem. Shaf kt Jordan. N Nisah,Sarah,Mun,Wisya,Inah,Dayah smue kt Mesir. Tinggal #sesamernr je. Drg je yg akn klua dgn aku bile aku balik SG. Tpi skrg ni drg quite busy sikit. Tpi still drg luangkn masa drg untuk klua dgn aku. So kteorg akn jumpe this coming Sunday. Yaaay! Can't waittt. Ade byk gile citeeee nk share kt drg. Haha kk. Sbnrnya the main purpose i tulis blog sbb nk share sikit pnglmn sem 1 i yg agak tk brpe interesting sgt haha. SEM 1 1) Cabaran yg i kene tempuh is that masalah kwn. Like legit first2 skali i msuk USIM, i srsly mcm nk klua je. Yelah tkde kwn rpt pun. Bkn tuh je, but ade byk gile gaduh dgn kwn2 SG. End up kwn Mlysia juga yg baik n more matured dri kwn2 SG i. Sorry to say this but well. Tpi s...

Hmmmm so finally eh keputusan dh muktamad. Mesir ❌❌❌ Malaysia (to be specific USIM / UM ) ✅✅✅ Haissssh. I will be sending off meja mamamz one by one 😭😭😭 Sumpah! Sedih gile 😭  First, syah yg akan fly dulu ✈️ (Tareem) Then Nisah,Sarah,Wisyah n Mun 😭✈️ (Mesir) Beyh aku sorang je tercampak kat Malaysia Haisssssshhhhhhhh serious uh nk nangis 💔💔💔 If aku ade prob or sedih, nk cite kat spe? Meja mamamz yg slalu ade untuk aku. N slalu support aku ape bnde yg aku buat. N ape yg buat aku happy kwn dgn drg is, drg baik sssgt. Slalu igtkn aku psl dosa/pahala. Sng ckp drg buatkan aku lagi rapat dgn Allah 💖✨ Drg just goals.  Dah terbiasa hidup dgn drg, gy mana2 dgn drg 😭💔 Walaupun nnti aku sambung USIM, ade syah b, hikmah, zinnirah, arafah but still ... rasanya tk same. No one can ever replace meja mamamz 😭💔 No more #azhariyyat but #maliziyyat :')  Ok bye. Rasa nak nangis pula tulis psl ni !