Life can only be understood backwards

1) I get nervous easily but I'm good at hiding it but at sometimes I just couldn't control nor do I managed to hide the nervousness. It's kinda complicated (I didn't understand myself too) as at some point of time, I get way too excited and was very eager to present but there comes a time where I get so nervous till it affect my concentration and lead me to unable to explain things very well and I won't even able to make eye contact with the audiences. Besides, my heart beat real fast too while I'm asking questions in the lecturer hall as the hall will be automatically become silent and all you could hear is your own voice. The nervousness will automatically increased from 80% to 110% I swear!  2) Believe it or not I get embarrassed easily and again I'm good at hiding it though my heart feels like jumping out of my chest at anytime.  3) I'm kinda perfectionist (it's not a good thing) when it comes to doing assignments. Like small little erro...

It's been a while since I posted something here. So, bonjour peeps! Well, things have been rough and busy. It’s been a fast-paced, busy and hectic for the past few weeks, and even months for me but glad that it's all over now Alhamdulillah. Amidst the hustle and bustle of daily life and got stucked into an abyss of chores and errands, I'm proud and contented to say that I succeed in managing my time efficiently and effectively. It's considered a big achievement for me cause I'm really bad at managing my time :') As usual, my plans for every semester break is to feed my brain with good knowledge 👀 Thought of going to the library more frequent but yeah I changed my mind cause I knew that I'll be borrowing lots of library books to return them untouched. Might as well I read all those untouched books on my shelves.